"And...Curtain"

so... that was an exciting day. when i went to bed last night i was having nightmares about my latest issue with braden. i did not feel that worthy to be up blessing the sacrament but i was the only priest present for sacrament meeting so i had a very slim chance of not blessing it. so i did so and while blessing, i said my own prayer about braden and that our lives wouldnt be ruined. i went through the rest of the day after church sitting in front of my laptop, listening to all the music that Becca has given me (brian crain is a real tear jerker) and watching all the slide shows that i have made from my camera and thinking about death (i know, it sounds morbud but, trust me, it wasn't), and all of a sudden, my pictures changed from the scenery of Alaska to my efy pictures and the formal dance. that was one of the best nights because it was when him and i really felt the spirit the most and it was a time where he was the biggest funniest guy in the world. nothing could bring him down. so as i was talking to a friend of both of ours (yeah really mature, riiiight) i got her talking to him about me and i learned that he had cooled down and we could talk about our differences. i still think that we may have a bit of tension between us but not as much as would bring us both down. i guess that we really are part of a quartar brain or else we would have been long gone away from each other long ago.